Wow... So much time passed by since my last and first journal. To me, a lot has changed... too much as I could tell you about all of it. Hard point is: I'm in love with an old love, I got in touch with some stunning artists here and my art has been noticed by some people. I still don't do high defined art but I practise. And I'm getting better, I hope. Soon, there will be more fotography and I'll keep up the work on my U.S.S. Gravity and other stuff.

Did you read the comments on my picture called "Adulterer and Hope"? It's half sad, half funny. Funny because people tried to awe me, telling me that "God" will not like what I'm doing. Others tried to tell me, that my friends on the pictures are in danger because they can find them, no matter where they are. Like Chris Crocker said once: "I just wanna say: Fuck you!"

Fuck off all you gay-haters, all you racists and all you homophobes! You're so(!) annoying! I don't give a shit on your oppinion and I'm not scared by your offenses. It's so sad that you can't accept love in all its beauty. Love does not make a difference between man or woman, gay oder hetero, trans or whatever. Love is, what you feel. And all ye can feel, ye can love. Go and ask your mommy to hug you. And please, don't try to heal me, there's nothing to cure. Just fuck off. Please.

Well... that had to be said. And all you loving gay, hetero, bi, trans or queer - people:
Don't worry We are what we are and we are proud. It's always dangerous to be different but we keep fighting and we're not afraid of people, who think that they have to beat us up only because they don't understand. Those are idiots.

I'm gay, I'm a human, I'm alive, I have feelings, I own a heart and I'm in love. I'm proud, I'm strong and I fight. For our rights, for our acceptance. We need to be dealed with respect, as any life on mother earth need to be dealed with.
Don't hate us, because we don't hate you.

*5Cent*

Yours,

Alechandrej
aka
Fynn

Well, yes.. so this is my first journal entry. I thought it would be time for writing down some things that I'm thinking about... most of all about Deviantart and it's users.
The first weeks here have been very unspectacular. I was and I still am just new and I think I could use DA to get some inspiration for what I do or want to do.
I'm feeling kinda confused because I've seen on what kind of art the people here do react. I had some really boring and bad done sketches in "Scraps" and nobody took notice of them. Now; a few days ago, I added a lot of other stuff that I've found on my computer. Mostly things that I've done couple of months or years ago. Again: No Notice.
Then I talk to Markus, from who I took some artistic nude pictures and ask him, if I am allowed to publish some of these photos here. He said yes and just a few hours after I've put a naked, nice looking guy with a sweet face on to DA, there where Messages, Comments and Fav's. Sure.. I like that kind of art too but there's so much more potential even in other kinds of art. I'd like to see that people not only notice great, perfect artwork... but also pieces of art... which have been a lot of work to the artist.. or which are not that perfect but could mean a lot for somebody.

Other hand I'm very very lucky that I've met some artists too, which are very nice and gentle... and just wonderful like Neldorwen. I think she's a great artist and I think she's really "human".

I'll see what the next future will bring.

yours,

Chris